On being a widow …

Less than half of myself now;

struggling to discover me.

Grappling with the world outside

the sheltered heart of ‘we’ –

I have learned that walking in the dark

is possible to do;

and how each pain-filled journey that I make,


takes me further away from you.

I wonder if you should meet me now

in a crowded place;

would you recognise this changeling me

or turn away your face?

About atomsofstars

Reticent .. but I hope my poetry speaks for me .. Favourite quotation .. ' Uttering a word is like striking a note on the keyboard of the imagination.' Ludwig Wittgenstein
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8 Responses to On being a widow …

  1. LetterzToNoOne says:


    • atomsofstars says:

      Good morning,

      Thank you for calling by and for expressing how you feel about these lines .. I appreciate that you took the time to read and to comment here.

      Hope your day goes well.

  2. didacuscorner says:

    Yours is a creative widowhood, poetess, and so I hope the marriage has been…The flower, in picture, is of a beautiful vermilion…and you ‘have learned that walking…’ on the moon ‘is possible to do…’ …

  3. atomsofstars says:

    Hello Didacus … How kind you are!

    Thank you very much for your always supportive comments. Yes, poppies are most beautiful .. I wrote a poem about them .. I’ll post it here soon.

    Hope you have a happy and sunny weekend 🙂

  4. Shermeen says:

    As always, heartbreakingly honest poetry. Words will not do here.


  5. atomsofstars says:

    Thank you so much again, Shermeen …. writing poetry is cathartic for me .. sometimes the only way I seem to really express myself to myself .. ( I’m not sure that makes much sense .. do you see what I mean ? )

    I hope you can enjoy this lovely sunny weekend …. I’m off to the sea in a short while ..

    Marya x

  6. Shermeen says:

    Yes, writing poetry can be cathartic. The power of the written word is great. I do so very well relate to what you say about expressing yourself to yourself. When done on the level that you have, it is an utterly charming skill.

    I hope your time at the sea side was good. Perhaps inspiration for a new piece? It has been a pleasantly sunny day here as well.

  7. atomsofstars says:

    Thank you very much, Shermeen … Yes thank you .. it was lovely. I went for a swim at Porthcurnick beach, nr. Portscatho … walked along in the surf in the sunshine and then read The Spectator and some of Coleridge’s work … some letters to his poet friends. I find his erudition and personality fascinating … as with Shakespeare, Dante, and Keats .. I would love to have met him 🙂

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